I got to a point in my life where suddenly realize that, I claimed to be in active service for many years only to discovered that, I have believed some forms of theory and philosophy about life and ministry.
There are lots of things that can depress a man even when you know you have put in your best effort in service in this kingdom yet to no avail. They could be from wrong decision made over time about what we wanted from God’s own intentions; other times oppressions from superior officers we look up to for positive transition, refusal to the original assignment which was birthed by our ordinations.
Like in my case, it was a deep concern about my family and how I wanted to prove to them that, I’m not exactly what they think I’m. Even when my calling and ordination was obviously known to me for as long I have known my God, I wanted to do my own thing just to prove a point and make my family proud, though it was a good intention but not God’s intention.
Matt 10:37-39
He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
38 And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me.
39 He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.
KJV
In search of greener pasture, I relocated from my base to somewhere else thinking the situation might be better, only to discovered that, the fact that we change location most of the times does not change the original plan of God for our lives and destinies. At this point, God brought my way privileges to enable me reconnect back to the original agenda which He has committed into my hands to do but my ambition would not allow me a moment and for over a decade, it’s been ups and downs revolving round a particular cycle that could only change its color as though something new is happening but the truth was that, His mercy was the only sustaining and surviving life line for my life and the big awaiting point I want to prove never came alive.
I discovered that God brought so many opportunities my way just to turn me back on track and instead of seeking him diligently, I was rather justifying myself with the ill treatment received from men and women during all this years dealing unknowingly to me. My predicaments were all anchored to my refusal to align with the primary assignment God gave to me over ten years ago, my eyes became open to reality when God decided to deal personally with that which I claimed to hold with high esteem more than the ordination which the immortals wrought out from the inner room concerning my calling. The family I thought I cherished so much, guides, protect, preserve, and want to provide for, all of a sudden God decide and begin to cease them one after the other away from me and it done on me that, if I should continue the way I’m going, my entire generation would be wipe off.
I obviously understand that what I’m sharing right now might look abstract to so many out there reading this webpage but the truth is I’m not telling you a story but sharing my life experience with you. My prayer for you right now is so that you do not following this pathway that I chose before now but learn from my experience in other to avoid history to keep repeating its self because experience is not truly the best teacher like we have been told by philosophers in school of thoughts.
I know I may not have enough tangible things to show forth since this new page of my life but the peace and joy that floods my spirit is immeasurable seeing myself doing that which I was ordain from the beginning as an anchor and I will not let it go away this time by the special grace God.
Rom 8:28-30
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
29 For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.
30 Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.
KJV
Though those years may seem wasted but I must tell you that my experience with God was a great pathway for my personal dealings, there are things I learnt over a decade, that were only thought me by the Holy Spirit which were proves of God’s mercy over my life.
Though during those moment, there were times when I do not just feel God’s presence even though my conscience still survives by life breath, I know that the heaven were closed over my head. Other times I asked myself, what is the essence of been a child of God when everything look like hell was set lose against me. I remember when the one you so trusted could suddenly disappoint you, people ganging up against you at your place of work for just no cause of any error committed, where your direct boss always raising issues with you simply because you refused to compromise with instruction given which is not in alignment with proper duties to carry out, what would you have to say when in this same kingdom, other look at you as a treat and they become suddenly insured whenever they see or hear you speak and can do anything to shift you away by plotting you out.
It will interest you to know that, I failed in all these simply because instead of me seeking God faithfully and diligently during this experience, I rather was trying to accept my predicament by justifying my situation base on what men and women did to me wrongly without a cause until I met my father in the lord, in person of Apostle Arome Osayi, who told me not to fight human in situations like this, instead I should keep seeking God diligently.
The truth about life is that; when it come to the issue of this kingdom, emotions are not attached because they do not count, all that matter is to maintain your alignment with God and seek him diligently without asking God questions that He will not answer but returned back the “why” in four(4) different ways back to you to ponder over. E.g. When you ask God why me? Hear what he will respond!
Why what?
Why ask why?
Why don’t you know why?
Why do you want to know why?
When a man fails to understand the reason why certain things happen in this sphere of life, it’s a proof for lack of revelation of the purpose and the intention on the mind of God. We are all govern by times and seasons in this human race and this is why I decided to share a fraction of my experience and other dealings which time will not permit right now to tell you but in my subsequence post, you will get to understand more of my dealings within the past decade and I’m very sure that my experiential testimony would edify your life so that you do not repeat this same error like some school of thought will say “experience is the best teacher” though I’m sorry if I stand to debate with this statement because I would rather advice we learn from other people’s experience, than getting involve directly because not everyone may survive that valley of the shadow of death when death record in already registered in the soul. The rod and the staff of God is a prove of His mercy and compassion and he shows it upon womb he wishes.
Romans 9:15-16
For he saith to Moses, I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.
16 So then it is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of God that sheweth mercy.
KJV
Whenever men resolve to learn from experience, they simply allow history to keep repeating itself and that alone brings about stack stagnation.
NB: Rededication is the kingdom solution for restoration and God would be glad with His arms wide open to welcome anyone who would acknowledge the loss of position and waste of resource that God wrought on him or her for kingdom work. Just like the prodigal son and what his father did while he saw him afar returning back home from the jungle pigs.
Luke 15:17
And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father’s have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!
KJV
Luke 15:20
And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.
KJV
Luke 15:22
But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet:
KJV
God will cloth afresh again, so we can fit in to his original plan birthed by our ordination, which was wrought from the inner room where eternal realities are stamped, in other to accomplish the sector assigned to us in this kingdom. They are works we must work.
John 9:4-5
4 I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.
5 As long as I am in the world, I am the light of the world.
KJV
PRAYER
O’Lord, I come to you today and now, like the prodigal son who wondered away out of ignorance, squandered the divine resources invested in me, please have mercy and accept me back as I rededicate my life back to you, all I ask is your sufficient grace to be active in this kingdom in thy name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
Congratulation, Hallelujah.
